i hate myself when im weak

browsing through my university thingy trying to get more information..
click on and what i saw--------> 'registration date' oh god!! 28 June?? a week to go!! thought it will be in another two weeks..my heart jus felt uneasy.. eerie!! gosh im so scared..never knew it is so soon!! im not ready..GOD!! please giv me two more weeks ..im petrified, trembling so fast..i just dunno y?? i thought im geared up..but is not when it comes to reality!! it feels like something wrong deep in my heart like a sword going through it!!! help... i felt like crying!! :(

terrified,
Mi